I hate how..

I hate how it ended.

I hate how I miss you.

I hate how I love you.

I hate how things are now.

I hate how we don't hangout.

I hate how I dwell on this.

I hate how I still go to your Facebook and creep you like nothing happened.

I hate how we didn't fight for each other.

I hate how we don't look at each other the same. 

I hate how we will never be the same.

I hate how I think about our jokes.

I hate how I feel forgotten.

I hate how almost everything I do reminds me of you.

I hate how we gave up.

I hate how everyone says "it's better off that way" when it's not. It's not better this way and it never will be better this way. But whatever, I'm dealing with it.

I figured I had to blog about you someday..

there's too much I want to say but can't so I'll keep it short and simple. I remember being best friends like it was yesterday. I've known you for an eternity and over one little thing everything came crumbling apart. In fifth grade, our parents swore we'd get married one day. Your mother adored me, and mine adored you. You were considered family. You could call me while I was in the shower and my mom would answer; you could carry on a conversation with her forever until I got out the shower. We grew closer and closer everyday.Then over something absolutely ridiculous, that friend ship basically got flushed down the toilet. I know we will probably never be friends again but I miss you so much and I wish things would go back to the way they were. We were so close and it's just stupid that we couldn't hold on to such a great friend ship. We were like family. We were each others worlds. 

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